Resolve

To be highly fixed. To be immovable. To be unwavering. These are the qualities which mark people that are resolute. Having a goal in sight and seeing it through, regardless of the tumultuous roads before you. When I think of the word resolve, I think back to the main characters of my most favorite Animes. Characters like Naruto Uzumaki, Ichigo Kurosaki, and Asta of Black Clover are the shining stars of what absolute resolution means to me (If you don’t know who the people I just mentioned are then you really NEED to catch up on your anime). What’s even crazier is things like resolve, perseverance, and manly determination, are normally supposed to be taught and passed down to the son by the father, but I didn't get any of that from my father, I really got it from Anime. Watching these characters face the wildest adversities, and continue carry the weight of the world on their shoulders always makes me self-reflect. I put myself self in their shoes and realize all of the obstacles that I’ve faced are nothing in comparison to theirs. YEAH YEAH YEAH, I KNOW IT’S FICTION! But if you understand and believe in the multi-verse theory, then you’ll understand that just because another world might seem imaginary to you, doesn’t mean that it couldn’t exist.

I chose the word resolute today because its the only thing I can say every successful role model of mine has ever possessed. Absolute resolution. Coming from nothing, with no advantages or privileges, and still making both a name for themselves and positively changing the world around them. All the while balancing a healthy and loving personal home for themselves, and their family. That’s really all I want. It has nothing to do with achieving fame to get girls, or being able to exert power over people. I just wanna be able to provide. I want to be a true provider for each and every person that’s ever touched my life. I had a real conversation with my siblings on my mother’s side, who are all younger than me btw, and told them my deepest insecurities as an older brother. After saying things to them that I’ve never even said out loud to myself, I understood in that moment that there couldn’t be any obstacle in my life that I could not face! Finding absolute resolution will not be an easy journey, but I know that as long as I continue to strive for it in most minimal way, then I’ll be satisfied with the life that I lived on my deathbed. Yeah. That’s my truth.